After five months of drafts, I've finally decided not to attempt to summarize the extreme ups and downs of my life these last 5-6 months and tell you what I’m doing now. Thanks to Mr. Kenny Beats for reminding me not to overthink shit… anymore. I will say that two months of solitary confinement in my 164 square foot micro studio full of art supplies after six weeks of one of the most magical rap tours of my life led to me finally asking for help getting the much needed mental health care I deserve. I’d surely be dead if I was a dabbler in vices that could kill me. I’m grateful for my family and friends that have helped bring me into My Own Light and keep my un-caffeinated head somewhere in the orbit of the rest of my body. 2020 went nothing like I had planned but the first two and a half months were pure magic. Thanks to Dessa, Sa-Roc, Sol Messiah, Rapsody, Monakr, Khrysis, Face, Heather Victoria, Becky, and the Rhymesayers family for sharing their light with me! I even had my first solo art show in January in a coffee shop in Redmond, Washington.
I remain in love with me and all of my creative pursuits and recognize that if I don’t move forward full heart ahead, I’ll never reach even the lowest peaks of my infinite potential. So today… I blog.
Made with two images of Salvador Dalí’s “The Pearl”
Over the last week, I’ve completed four collages for the MF DALÍ collection and cooked/chopped some delicious food for myself… a remarkable feat for someone without a real kitchen. I remain so grateful for all that I have that I sometimes wonder how I could possibly need anything else… then I remember the joy of a rap tour, the satisfaction of sharing my creative pursuits with others, and that dating someone awesome could be lovely. It is the art of black people that has kept me afloat these 41 years and I know that my role will continue to be shining light on the creative humans that have provided me with so much joy. We all have roles to play in the new era of Earth and mine requires me to share the art of myself and others every single day. We’re not all built for the front lines of this battle but every role is important. I remain grateful for the humans that have been the physical tide of change this planet needed. It’s not over yet but the world is waking up which is the first step in healing. The revolution will be beautiful.
Made with five images of Salvador Dalí’s portrait of Luis Buñuel.
TheRingOfDOOM did not physically survive the rap tour but he has many former (and future) bodies with which he can continue his Earth mission. The designated TROD pocket of my cargo pants isn’t the safest mode of travel and I ended up losing one of his feet when he broke last. It is possible that I may still find it but I have no shortage of photos of his adventures to tie us all over until he is whole again… likely later today.
Made with two images of Salvador Dalí’s “Unsatisfied Desires”
I’d love to detail my many plans for the close and distant future but we already know that a goal is just a wish if we do not take action. It’s infinitely more powerful to show what we have done already. I am actively working on creating paid opportunities in LA and NY… tell your friends. It’s time to level up.
Made with two images of Dalí’s painting of Cadaques, Spain and bonus Liz water
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Joey Bada$$ x Capital STEEZ - “Survival Tactics” 2012 Shoutout to Mr. Joey Bada$$ for showing us that asking for help is a good thing. We love you Joey!